Sometimes I just want to check out of life, but then I get reminded of my blessings and the effort of my loved ones and realize I must be grateful because things could be a whole lot worse
But often I think that I'm just making a bigger mess of things, please let me check out now before it's too late
But then if I do I might surely go to hell. So I stay and I pray, ask God for deliverance, give Him praise for his guidance, patience and mercy. But I'm afraid, I'm always afraid that even my best won't be good enough. I screw up every day, sometimes in the worst way. Sometimes when I get on my knees, all I can say is "please"!
Deliver me from this life sentence from hell, because it is hard to keep doing well.
My time may not have yet come, I know it's selfish but for a while now... I am done.
But then I think about my loved ones and those that are in need, please Lord deliver me from this greed; to want to save my own life, at the cost of others, there is nothing noble in that, no honor, no life.
That what you have breathed into me to serve another. To be a witness of your Glory, it's truly an honor. So please help me focus on doing well. It's the least I can do, thank you for breathing life into this empty shell
